Vacation and New Eating Plan

So I went on vacation and have been home now for a few days. Since March 26, I have not looked up one item in a calorie book or looked up one thing on a calorie counting website.

This, my friends, is a MIRACLE. I can’t remember a time since I was a teenager that I didn’t count my calories, no matter how astronomically high that number got.

But… When we were away, I did tally calories in my head because I was not eating my normal foods. I didn’t write anything down though. From decades of calorie counting, I’m a walking calorie book, as I’m sure most of you are too. Ask me a piece of important information in my life and I’ve got no clue – ask me how many calories are in 4 ozs of cooked chicken, I can spout that out immediately.

So on the trip, I was eating intuitively, mostly. The one thing that I did not do intuitively was eat my dessert when we were out to dinner. The four of us would eat and it was just natural to order dessert and eat it, hungry or not. But this showed me, that I can be a “normal” eater, simply by making good choices. I ate dessert every night, but it was sensibly, with no regret, and did not overindulge at all. So it would seem that at this point in time, I’m not eating 100% intuitively, but my gosh, what I’m doing is worlds away from what I’ve done in the past.

I’m quite content with this. I don’t know what tomorrow, next week, next month or next years holds, but I don’t care. I’m taking it one day at a time. I can hopefully stop the tallying in my head, but after calculating for decades, this may take some time. I’m a work in progress and am totally fine with that.

I will not be getting on scale for two weeks, so I really won’t know if I gained or lost on the vacation. At that point, it will have all balanced out anyway.

Because it’s good to take stock and to acknowledge any accomplishments, which I rarely, if ever, do, I’m going to list them:

    1. I stopped getting on the scale at least once a day. I have only been on once a month in 2010, so only three times this year. Amazing.

    2. I am tuned into my hunger cues instead of just eating because it says a certain time on the clock (which is what I’ve done for so many years).

    3. I am tuned into my body and trying to ask myself, when I am hungry, what am I really in the mood for.

    4. Since March 26, I have not written down or kept vigilant track of my calories. Somehow, I am really ok with this. Yes, I did tally them in my head while on vacation and am still doing it now to some extent, but I did not write them down and I really couldn’t tell you my total from one day to the next. Rome was not built in a day, ya know!

While away, I worked out twice, although abbreviated, in the hotel gym and we did TONS of walking, me carrying the backpack of drinks/snacks, etc.

And oh, the trip was really exhausting, but really great. The museums we went to, the historical landmarks we saw, the cherry blossoms, everything was fascinating. We hope our kids took at least some good info away from the trip.

One Day at a Time... Nurture myself... Awareness... Letting Go... Listen to my Body

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  1. Jill
    05 April 2010, 5:29 pm

    I’m so happy that you had a great vacation and did so well with your eating! Bravo girl! I can’t wait for Danny and I’s vacation in June! It’s only March but I’m feeling totally restless! 🙂
    .-= Jill´s last blog ..SirenOfFire: Can’t wait to go on vacation in June! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, jill.
    you know how fast time flies, it will be june before you know it!

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    Jill Reply:

    You’re welcome. Yes it definitely does, so I know June will come quickly…and in a few more months my fiance and I will have been together
    for 4 years! (July 4th, 2010)
    .-= Jill´s last blog ..SirenOfFire: Can’t wait to go on vacation in June! =-.

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  2. Diana
    05 April 2010, 6:56 pm

    Great job! I’m so impressed that one day you just did it. I suppose that’s how all of this works. You just decide to do it and you do it. Done.
    That’s what I’m hoping to accomplish with not blogging. Just do it and stop contemplating (all the friggin time!!!)what I should do and what I have done. And, I love that you can “just do it” and still blog about all of this 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, diana! it was a great book i read (i’m pathetic with all these books, aren’t i?!?!?), that i think i’m going to write about soon, as it really inspired me to move on from the point that i was.
    i totally hear ya, i overthink EVERYTHING. =) are you still going to read blogs or give up both ends of it?

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  3. Alicia
    05 April 2010, 8:01 pm

    I am so excited for you. I know exactly how you feel – I too feel like a walking calorie calculator at all times! You are making amazing strides. You constantly inspire me that there is life after ED.
    .-= Alicia´s last blog ..recipe: CTC beef stew =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i’m still a work-in-progress, alicia, but thanks so much!

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  4. Suzie
    05 April 2010, 8:26 pm

    I’m so happy for you! I think the transition has to be natural and it seems yours was! I am looking forward to hearing how you feel as time goes on. I am certain it will feel fantastic!
    .-= Suzie´s last blog ..another day off! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i am looking forward to hearing how i feel as time goes on too, suzie! =) thanks for your support.

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  5. Michelle
    05 April 2010, 8:56 pm

    You are an inspiration. Thanks for showing me the way. I hope to be like you when I “grow up”. Thanks for being honest and admitting some things are hard. It’s refreshing.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    aw, thanks for your kind words, michelle! i feel like honesty is the only way to go, whether the info is good or bad.

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  6. Lisa
    05 April 2010, 9:49 pm

    That is so exciting. I am so glad that book has been helpful for you!!! Yea!!!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i can’t thank you enough, lisa, it has been pivotal for me. i’m a firm believer there is a reason for all the people you “meet” in life, and clearly you and your recommending this book to me was one of those moments.

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  7. Jody - Fit ta 52
    06 April 2010, 8:17 am

    I love that you took stock of your accomplishments! We all really have to do that more! Good for you for giving yourself credit for all those steps you took to getting healthier & better! And a nice vacation too! 🙂
    .-= Jody – Fit ta 52´s last blog ..Obesity, The Crisis, Jamie Oliver, My Feelings =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i rarely give myself a pat on the back for anything, so when the moment struck, i jumped on it. i tell other people to take pride in their accomplishments and needed to practice what i preached.

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  8. Christie {Honoring Health}
    06 April 2010, 8:57 am

    I’m so happy fo ryou!!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thank you, christie!

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  9. Lara
    06 April 2010, 9:45 am

    Congrats! I am so happy for you. It really is true that after years of counting/measuring etc you do have a good sense of what is your “normal” amount of food, portion sizes, etc.
    With desserts, I don’t think we are every truly “hungry” when we eat them. This part of IE confuses me. I understand not gorging on desserts but I think it is normal to eat dessert when not physically hungry for the tastes/enjoyment. But to me it is sort of outside the IE equation. Not sure if that makes sense?

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i totally understand what you are saying about the desserts, lara, and i feel better knowing you think that way. i mean, really, if i’m out with a group of people and everyone is having dessert, and i would like some, should i really ask for a piece to take home to save for later when i’m hungry? that doesn’t make sense to me either. maybe we just have to personalize the IE for what is best for us?

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  10. Holly
    06 April 2010, 10:43 am

    I can’t imagine how freeing this must have felt! I always get a little apprehensive on vacations, in particular, because you’re outside of your “comfort zone.” I have 2 vacations this summer and I hope I can just eat intuitively and ENJOY myself. That’s what vacations are for….and like you said, it all balances out in the end!
    .-= Holly´s last blog ..Alternative Baking Company Cookies =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    It’s only been a week and half, but it is kind of freeing. and empowering! it feels good to let go of my white-knuckle-grip of control when it comes to eating/food.

    and yes, i’m typically the exact same way, being anxious about vacations. i always pack my own snacks (as i’m a grazer and don’t want to leave my little snacks up to chance of what’s available) but can usually do ok with meals.

    i bet you will do great on your vacations. we are all here for you. =)

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  11. Sagan
    06 April 2010, 10:43 am

    “it would seem that at this point in time, I’m not eating 100% intuitively, but my gosh, what I’m doing is worlds away from what I’ve done in the past.” It’s all relative! Comparing ourselves to ourselves is important to see the progress that we’ve made.

    I’m glad you had such a lovely trip and that you are making leaps and bounds with intuitive eating!
    .-= Sagan´s last blog ..The Living Healthy in the Real World Guide to Budgeting, Part Two: Making Sacrifices =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks for that great perspective, sagan. you are right, i can’t and shouldn’t compare myself to what others do. i appreciate your support.

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  12. Margarita Tartakovsky
    06 April 2010, 11:41 am

    Just wanted to say congrats again! I love that you made a list of your accomplishments, which is very inspiring. It’s important to acknowledge the great things you’re doing and learning.

    I think intuitive eating is about being flexible and includes enjoying what you eat, too. For instance, I really enjoy dessert and like to have something sweet after dinner every day.

    Some days, that’s a piece of dark chocolate, others a cookie and others a piece of pie. I think eating everything in moderation is A-OK. The key, I think, is flexibility, and not being hard on yourself.

    Thanks for a great post! 🙂
    .-= Margarita Tartakovsky´s last blog ..Health & Happiness At Every Size: Part 2 of Q&A with Elizabeth Patch =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much! i rarely give myself credit for anything, either from myself or from other people, that is something that i’m working on. i made that list so i could see in black and white that i truly have accomplished a lot and that i need to take the credit for it and take pride in it.

    i’m really glad that you and others are talking about flexibility. like i said to your other comment, i am, and have always been, a rule-follower, so i felt like i wasn’t doing this intuitive eating thing quite right if i was eating dessert right after dinner as opposed to waiting until i was truly hungry as IE says.

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