Stomach Virus and the Compulsive Eater

love2eatinpa, 22 January 2010, 10 comments
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So what started as fever, aches, headache, chills, sweats and an upset stomach on Tuesday in the middle of the night through Wednesday has boiled down to an upset stomach, also known as the lovely stomach virus.

I am typically not a stomach ailment person, so it’s a little weird for me to deal with. The crazy part of it is that for two days now (today begins day three) I have had no appetite. Those very words coming out of my mouth seem incomprehensible to me, a compulsive eater.

The thought of food makes my already funky-feeling stomach start to turn. Eating something as small as a 10-calorie sugar free jello makes my stomach feel like I went on the mother of all binges, w/bloating and gurgling and pains that last for hours. Of course, I’m hardly eating anything (although I’m drinking a lot of fluids) as my doctor assured me it was ok to do. How totally opposite of a normal day for me where I always seem to be hungry!

And somehow I’m not freaking out because I missed yesterday and this morning at the gym. I’m just not up to it and I know it. A rule of thumb I’ve always read and followed over the years is if your ailment(s) is above the neck, you are ok to work out. If it’s below the neck, take a break. My next day to hit the gym is Sunday and I’m hoping I’ll be fine by then.

When I had umbilical hernia repair surgery last year, the anesthesia and pain meds caused me to lose my appetite, so I ate less. When the meds finally worked out of my system a couple days later and my appetite came back, I remember sending my husband out to dairy queen to get a brownie blizzard cuz I had tons of calories to make up for, and after the surgery, I certainly deserved a treat. 🙂

So, being the (recovering) compulsive overeater I am, of course a decadent treat has crossed my mind, but right now I’m still feeling too icky to even think about it w/out getting queasy. Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel better and be able to give it some thought. 🙂

My dear husband suggested that maybe in my compulsive eating recovery that having a special treat to make up for all the missing calories will not come in to play. It would be great if he was right, but we’ll see….

One day at a time. Nurture myself. Awareness. Letting Go.

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  1. Lisa
    22 January 2010, 12:38 pm

    Feel better! You were right to take the days off from working out-your body will thank you and bounce right back!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    aw, thanks, lisa! i’m trying to convince myself, and i’m sure you are right, that i will be able to bounce back quicker after giving my body the rest it needs.

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  2. Michelle@Eatingjourney
    22 January 2010, 7:53 pm

    you poor thing.

    How about a special treat that isn’t revolved around food? I am totally the same way, and I am trying to shift from food rewards if you know what I mean.

    Flowers? Massage? Facial–best.thing.ever

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    hi michelle ,
    you mean there are rewards other than food???!? JK! seriously, you are right, up until now, every reward for something good (or even something bad!) was always justification to give myself a sweet treat.
    your suggestions are awesome and had we “found” each other a few weeks ago, you would have seen that when i hit my 2-yr binge-free anniversary on 1/1, my sweetheart of a husband gave me two dozen roses (1 rose for each month binge-free) and that i went to a spa to get a facial, reflexology and massage. great minds, huh? 🙂
    so while i’m certainly not saying it couldn’t hurt to get more than one facial or massage in a month, i kind of feel (get ready, here comes the justification!) that since i’ve been sick and eating way less than the calories than i allot myself each day, that i truly can allow myself a food treat. Just one thing, on one day, after i’m feeling better when i will be able to taste it and truly savor it. one of the reasons i want to have the treat is because i do not want to lose weight and i’m afraid that my lack of calorie intake over these last few days (and who knows how many more days this virus will stick around) will cause me to lose weight. so this is one of these rare moments where i can truly chose to have something decadent and not sweat it for even a second. i can’t help but think that this (well, when i’m better) is the time to do it. did that sound convincing? 🙂

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  3. Jess
    22 January 2010, 9:57 pm

    Get well soon! I’m sorry you’re ill.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thank you very much! it’s so beyond the realm of normalcy for me to have no appetite.

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  4. Jill
    23 January 2010, 7:20 pm

    I’m so sorry you are sick, I struggle with stomach problems quite a bit so I know how you feel! About the reward…maybe a sweet treat of fruit or something else besides ice cream could do the trick? I also think the non food rewards are great too. It’s up to you though, that blizzard sounds so good LOL! 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    aw, thanks, jill!
    oh man, you have stomach issues often? that’s a sin!
    thanks for your suggestions. i still don’t know what i’m doing as i’m still in a bit of a fog. it’s ridiculous that this is something i even need to use brain cells for. ‘normal eaters’ would never have this problem. *sigh*

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  5. Jill
    25 January 2010, 7:33 pm

    You’re welcome, I’ve signed up for any new content that you put in the blog and I definitely do want to read your blog from the beginning on, its been a long time since I’ve blogged but I just don’t feel a need to start one up. I admire you for putting your struggles out there for the world to see! 😀

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    you are sweet! thanks and welcome to my journey!
    it is very therapeutic for me to write like this. of course, i’m still anonymous, so yes, i’m putting my struggles out there, but i haven’t truly ‘outed’ myself yet. 🙂 maybe one day it will feel right and i will.

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