Spring Break and More on Intuitive Eating

This is a cross post on WATRD

So next week my kids have spring break and we are all driving to Washington, D.C. for a family vacation.

Normally I get uptight about being away from the comfort of my foods, food scale, etc, but this tme I feel more relaxed about it. I will bring along some healthy snacks and will make good choices for my meals.

I will try to get in a few workouts and we’ll certainly be doing a lot of walking.

This new calmness is a wonderful and new feeling for me.

I will be pulling out of the archives some old posts of mine and scheduling them to post while I’m away because I thought it might be good for me to be reminded, and hopefully enjoyable for you to see, where this journey of mine began. While I will try to read and respond to any comments left on my blog, I unfortunately won’t have time to read your blogs and leave comments, so I’m sorry about that.

More thoughts on intuitive eating… I apologize that I keep clarifying that I’m thinking about doing this and that at any time that could change depending on my mood/day, but here goes…

I feel like over the past two years or so (since I discovered I had an ED) that I have been meandering slowly over to a fence. On one side of the fence is disordered eating, the other side is intuitive eating/ recovery. I’m binge-free, my weight has been at a constant for about 18 months, I am pretty much ok day-to-day, but outings can be challenging food-wise unless I’m really on my game.

Right now, I feel like I’m standing at the base of the fence on the disordered eating side and I’m looking over at the intuitive eating/recovered side. I just need to take the first step to start climbing the fence. The fence is tall and scary, out of my comfort zone. But I have a quiet calm about me now in regard to food, so maybe it is my time to start the climb over.

I have also decided that when I take that climb, my intuitive eating will be exactly what I’m doing right now as far as eating healthy. I’m not sure I’m ready to just have anything I want, as per intuitive eating, and be ok with that. I’m not sure I’m ready to just have anything I want and be ok with that. So does that mean I won’t be intuitive eating? Do I have to do that part? It just feels safe to me right now. Can I just do what I’m doing now, but minus the weighing/meausuring of my portions and writing down every calorie I take in?

I have gotten pretty good at listening to my hunger cues and not just eating because it’s a certain time on the clock. So that is a good thing. I also think I’m pretty ok with knowing when I’ve had enough, although when I portion things, I know that I can totally finish everything, so that part is a little sketchy.

I know that slips here and there won’t kill me and that “normal” eaters sometimes overeat too. That gives me a level of comfort. I think I’m at a point where I have learned to let go a bit and enjoy foods that really taste good, go over in my calories a little and not beat myself up about it. From what I’ve read, that is what separates us ED’d folks from “normal” eaters. They don’t obsess about overeating one meal.

So does that still count as intuitive eating? Will doing what I wrote above put me on the other side of the fence?

Have a wonderful week and happy holidays everyone!

One Day at a Time... Nurture myself... Awareness... Letting Go... Listen to my Body

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  1. Jess
    26 March 2010, 6:14 pm

    I really think that your Higher Power is guiding you to this new abstinence because you have a serenity about accepting intuitive eating as your new food plan.

    I look forward to seeing how it goes, and enjoy your trip to Washington, D.C.!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    wow, i didn’t think of it that way, thank you for sharing that wonderful perspective with me, jess.

    thanks!

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  2. Kim
    26 March 2010, 6:27 pm

    So glad you have that calmness. I know that feeling and love it. I used to get so uptight on trips!

    I wouldn’t stress out too much about the intuitive eating. I’ve kind of come to peace with the fact that I may not ever do this, to the exact definition of it anyway. But, to answer your question, “Can I just do what I’m doing now, but minus the weighing/measuring of my portions and writing down every calorie I take in?” YEP. That’s what I do 🙂 It’s a great deal of peace for me. If I do intuitive eating, I don’t eat enough. I’ve betrayed my body too long to have solid hunger cues. I’m ok with this. I just have to live accordingly. I do eat intuitively in that I get up and consider what I want for breakfast from a mental list of usual choices. I think it’s small steps and knowing what’s intuitive for you. My intuition tells me I need some things out of myself right now to guide my eating. Nothing wrong with that 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much for your support, kim. i hope that when i take the leap that it will bring me peace as well. and perhaps the intuitive eating is a personalized thing?

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  3. POD
    26 March 2010, 6:57 pm

    Have a great trip. And enjoy the city and the family time.
    .-= POD´s last blog ..Digging Up Dirt =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, janell!

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  4. rita
    26 March 2010, 7:02 pm

    I hope you have a wonderful time with your family. What a wonderful time to experience a sense of calmness about food when those situations can be so anxiety provoking in the past.
    .-= rita´s last blog ..Someone Got Her Mojo Back! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, rita! i hope the calmness sticks around.

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  6. Lisa
    26 March 2010, 9:42 pm

    That is great that you don’t feel stressed about being away on vacation. That is such a hard one. I love to have control over my environment and get panicky when I don’t know what food I’m going to be exposed to.

    Your inching closer and closer to IE. You’ll get there. My husband is an intuitive eater and it’s amazing to watch. He may have a really big meal…but then not have a snack or eat a lot less at the next meal. The difference between him and I is that he gives it no thought. I know that will never be me, but it is fascinating to me that people can not give a thought to their eating and maintain their weight. Amazing!!
    .-= Lisa´s last blog ..The Results Are In…. =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, lisa. i don’t feel stressed about it now, as i will have my snacks and will probably really only eat three meals/day that aren’t my norm. i feel comfortable with that.

    my son and husband are “normal” eaters and it is amazing to see someone leaving food on their plate, turn down food because they say they are not hungry, or like you said – eat a big meal and then be able to moderate themselves afterwards. that is what i aspire to!

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  7. Holly
    26 March 2010, 9:47 pm

    I definitely think that sounds like the road intuitive eating – the fact that you know your hunger cues and listen to them, that is half the battle (for me, anyway). Today I was hungry ALL day and ended up having dinner at 4:30 – so early! But I was hungry, so I listened. I don’t always, but I think if you can learn to listen to your hunger and honor it, the other things will fall into place.

    It has to be such a freeing, comforting feeling to know that you are almost there! I hope you guys have a wonderful vacation – we’re supposed to have good weather here next week, so I’m sure D.C. will, too!
    .-= Holly´s last blog ..Chicken Cacciatore and Mama Got Some New Shoes! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, holly, i do feel like i’m on the road to intuitive eating. i know too from the book that eating ‘just because’ something looks good once in a while is ok. that feels good and do-able. i think once i get over this last hump of deciding when to start – tomorrow? after vacation? that it will be freeing, although i know it is taking a giant leap of faith to trust in myself and my body. i think i’m about ready for it though. i won’t know unless i try, right? and i know i can always go back, to my portioning ways if i need to. no bad in that.
    did you have a super hard workout this morning or perhaps are some hormones kicking in to have made you so hungry? good for you for listening to your body and having an early dinner instead of mindless snacking!

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  8. Christie {Honoring Health}
    27 March 2010, 7:20 am

    I think that is an awesome first step. We each go about our paths to eating intuitively differently and this is a great starting point. I think just applying the eat when you are hungry and stop when full principle is 100% enough in the beginning. When you are ready for more, go for more. When you need to step back, step back. This is your journey and you can go about it any way you please. I’ll be here for support!
    .-= Christie {Honoring Health}´s last blog ..{recipe review} Coconut Red Lentil Soup =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, christie, i really appreciate it! i’ve been learning through all these great comments that’s it doesn’t have to be an all-or-nothing, FINAL thing once i start. it is an experiment that will hopefully, eventually lead to a new lifestyle for me. as a follow-the-rules type of girl, i am grateful to know that there is not one proper way to go about doing this, that it is quite personalized. thanks again!

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  9. Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl
    27 March 2010, 9:56 am

    I hope you have a great trip! As you know we’ll be there not too long after you. We found out yesterday that we got in to tour the White House. My congressman’s aid pulled some strings apparently and I’m pretty excited. Have a great trip!
    .-= Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl´s last blog ..Caskets for the obese & Jamie Oliver’s ‘Food Revolution’ =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    you lucky dog!!!! i’m jealous! we are just going to a have to take some pictures of the kids clowning around looking like they are trying to break in. =)

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  10. Jody - Fit at 52
    27 March 2010, 11:14 am

    How exciting for a trip to DC! Lots going on there these days but thank goodness the politicians will be out of town! 🙂

    I think it is awesome with your awareness of all going on with your food & ED! I love that you are working it thru, step by step! You can do this! I think only you will know if it is working & if you should change it. You are learning to trust yourself on this & that us a good thing!

    Have fun!!!!!
    .-= Jody – Fit at 52´s last blog ..Saturday Funnies! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, and i think you are right, i will be the only one who knows if it’s working for me and if i need to make adjustments. i am working at learning to trust myself when it comes to eating and i feel like i’m about ready to take the plunge, so to speak.

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  11. karen@fitnessjourney
    27 March 2010, 1:23 pm

    Enjoy your trip! Hope you have some really comfy walking shoes.
    .-= karen@fitnessjourney´s last blog ..New Study Recommends 60 Minutes of Daily Exercise for Women =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, karen! it’s not my shoes i’m worried about, it’s my kids’ whining about all the walking. =)

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  12. Miz
    29 March 2010, 6:33 am

    I had a long talk with DIET GIRL about intuitive eating this week as we planned podcasts.
    It brought me back to my slloooow climb into eating this way…and reminded me how long it took to get my body there.
    xo xo,

    Carla

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i look forward to hearing that podcast, miz. its encourging to know that even you went through this and made it through to the other side. =)

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  13. amanda
    29 March 2010, 8:09 am

    You will be by me!! I live in the DC metro area for over 6 months now. We are suppose to have some great weather middle of the week now. I can’t wait to hear how the eating goes
    .-= amanda´s last blog ..Las Vegas Food Porn =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    cool! we are leaving soon and i think it’s supposed to rain today and tomorrow, but we look forward to the nice weather in the middle-end of the week! if you see a bunch of sight-seeing dorks, that’s us! =)

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  14. Victoria
    29 March 2010, 8:45 am

    Take it one step at a time…right now, just don’t weigh or measure your food. Take the next step of eating what you want when it is appropriate for you. But one step at a time, one day at a time…that is the key.

    Have a great time on your vacation and remember that even normal eaters gain weight on vacation so if you gain a pound or two, you can feel even more “normal”!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, victoria, good advice!

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  15. Victoria
    29 March 2010, 8:58 am

    just an add on from my previous reply. I wanted to give you my website too.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks! i will definitely check it out when i get back home (and have more time!).

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  16. Sagan
    29 March 2010, 10:28 am

    I think that the calmness is indicative of your progress. When we have that mental clarity, that’s a VERY good thing. After all, ED’s are mental disorders, so if we can actually relax and have a clear mind… that’s a sign that ED doesn’t have much power anymore.

    🙂 Hurray!
    .-= Sagan´s last blog ..Reader Mail from the Sisterroommate/traveller: Losing Weight Overseas =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i hadn’t really thought about it that way, but that really makes a lot of sense. thanks, sagan!!

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