Real Ice Cream in My Belly!

love2eatinpa, 16 January 2010, 4 comments
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So last night we took our kids to Friendly’s to dinner for the first time in years. I was feeling chilly, so I opted to get a soup and salad combo.

I didn’t check over their menu beforehand or give any thought to what I would do for dessert. Usually I would obsess about these things, but for some reason, I am still somehow in that “good place” and I just went with the flow. This is so huge for me to feel this way. Progress!
So we finish eating dinner and ice cream was part of my kids’ and husband’s meal. I ordered a cup of decaf, figuring I would grab some of my own dessert at home, no big deal. Turns out my daughter didn’t finish her “Friend-z” (which is like a Dairy Queen blizzard). So i decided to finish it. I enjoyed it, didn’t worry about the calories, just “let it go” because it was delish and figured I’d out work out/account for the calories when I got home.

When I got home and looked up the calorie count of what I guessed was my portion of the dessert, it put me over my calorie count by about 100 calories. I didn’t even flinch over this. I have finally come to realize that an extra 100 calories here and there is not going to put 20 lbs on my body overnight.

But here is the interesting thing, and this has happened before in the past two years, my stomach didn’t feel so good after eating the Friend-z. I think after all this time of eating basically the same thing on my food plan for the past two years, my stomach wasn’t quite sure what to make of, gasp!, real ice cream.

But I was fine when I woke up this morning and didn’t even get on the scale. That’s four days in a row of me not getting on the scale and I’m really OK with it! 🙂

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  1. Jess
    16 January 2010, 5:42 pm

    I like that your abstention is changing, in terms that your food plan is now a guideline rather than set in stone. Mine is set in stone right now or I would abuse the heck out of it.

    It looks like you’re outgrowing your current plan, that your maturity of awareness about your eating has evolved. It’s inspirational that some day I could have that same kind of awareness–that 100 calories here or there can be worked out the next day if need be and that something that could have been a trigger food wasn’t, and that I can actually hear my body messages and make decisions for my future eating based on that.

    I’ve been in places where something doesn’t feel good to eat not long after I started (as opposed to much later, in your dessert’s case), yet I kept eating it because I was sure it was the path to my happiness.

    I think “letting go” is the closest we get to normal eating. If we’re not supposed to, our HP will nag (certain feelings like anxiety, clear no’s, etc., the feeling that I “know better”). Well, mine does, anyway.

    It looks like your food plan might use a tweaking to include these “normal eater” fluctuations, especially since you aren’t binging punitively (something I know I would do if I left the safety of my food plan’s limits at this point in my recovery).

    Sounds like a good day.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i think you really nailed what i was trying to say and the place i feel like i’m in. you have a very good way of honing in that. i’m going to stick to my food plan because it is my safety zone, but just continue to do what i’ve been doing, which is just adding a modification here and there by ‘letting go’ if the situation calls for it.

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  2. Michelle@Eatingjourney
    21 January 2010, 5:01 am

    Having a healthy, non-abusive relationship w/ the scale is something which I find hard. I got rid of mine, but to be honest I weighed myself today at a friends houst and it was weird. It brought back a flood of emotions.

    Anyways, what I am trying to say is..good on your for getting to a place where day by day this relationship is repairing itself.

    Keep going 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    hi michelle, it’s been nine days since i’ve gotten on the scale. so far so good. it was such an ingrained habit for so many years i didn’t know if i would be able to give it up. it feels good to give up that little bit of control (among a ton of other things i’m trying to control!). thanks for your support!

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