Pssstt… I Started Eating Intuitively

I’m back from vacation! But more about that on Monday…

I have a little secret that I can’t keep to myself any longer. I wrote this write before I left but did not publish it because I did not know how things would go on my trip…

It is part of my nightly routine to read for about 10-15 minutes in bed before going to sleep. As you know, I’ve toying with the idea of changing to intuitive eating, but wasn’t sure when the right time was – before I leave for vacation, wait until I get back, wait to see if I gain weight from the estrogen supplements, on and on.

So last Friday night, March 26, I was reading this great book recommended by No More Diet Drama called “Goodbye Ed, Hello Me” by Jenni Schaefer (Ed stands for eating disorder) and it just so happened the chapter was about taking the leap of faith to go to intuitive eating. It basically said it’s like climbing a mountain and either slidinig back down or grabbing a parachute and taking the leap.

As I’m a firm believer in everthing happens for a reason, and that I just happened to be reading it as I was floundering on when to begin, I decided to take the leap the very next day. So the next day, Saturday, prior to leaving for the trip, I did not measure one thing I ate, I did not jot down the calories I consumed. I listened to my body and ate when it was hungry and stopped when I was full. I DID IT! I even went to my nephews birthday party (which I’ll write about soon). And you know what, it was really no big deal. It felt good to empower myself like that.

I didn’t even do the calculations in my head, which I totally thought I would do. Let’s face it, after all these past few years of eating my food plan, I pretty much know what I can eat in a day, and I just trusted myself to eat what was right for me when I was hungry.

So I don’t know how many calories I ate, I don’t know how much weight this estrogen is putting on me and I won’t know what I weigh until I get on the scale again until mid April. All of these things that I had a white-knuckle-grip of compulsive control on, I have let go.

Once I get through my mountains of laundry, I will let you know how things went on my trip.

Have a great weekend!

One Day at a Time... Nurture myself... Awareness... Letting Go... Listen to my Body

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  1. Diana
    03 April 2010, 10:10 am

    Yay! I’m so happy that you’ve decided to try this. You can do it 🙂
    .-= Diana´s last blog ..End of blogging =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much, diana! i’m going to give it my best shot. worst case, i go back to what i’ve been doing.

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  2. Rachel
    03 April 2010, 12:12 pm

    Way to go!! I, too, started eating intuitively a couple of months ago. I didn’t mind counting calories, I just knew if I wanted to lead a normal life, I couldn’t be doing that the rest of my life. Let me tell you, it was THE hardest thing to do, but THE MOST FREEING thing to do ever. I can’t believe how much I have grown since. Yes, some days I do want to count the calories, but I try not to. Keep it up girl!! 🙂
    .-= Rachel´s last blog ..Jesus-the only reason for Good Friday. =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much for writing and for the support, rachel! i’m not quite to the totally freeing part just yet, just sort of feeling my way around right now. =) hopefully i will get to where you are!

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  3. Biz
    03 April 2010, 1:16 pm

    That is great!! That is a huge accomplishment, I am so proud of you!

    Ugh, I am with you on the laundry – I have mountains too!
    .-= Biz´s last blog ..Best Cake Ever! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much, biz! still taking it one day at a time though.

    i’ll think of you as i’m folding? =)

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  4. Chef Lisa
    03 April 2010, 2:30 pm

    I am so happy for you! I’ve been intuitively eating for four years now, and it has been so liberating. Yay!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, lisa, i hope that in four years i can say the same thing!!!

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  5. Sagan
    03 April 2010, 3:30 pm

    Seriously?! That’s awesome!! I’m so happy and proud for you. That’s especially awesome that you didn’t do the calculations in your head… that’s a really tough habit to get out of once you’re in it.
    .-= Sagan´s last blog ..The Thirty Days of Yoga Challenge =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    seriously!! thanks, sagan! it’s hard for even me to believe and it was less harder than i expected. but, um, as i’m gathering my thoughts together for my post on monday about the trip, i admit that i tallied in my head…

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  6. Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl
    03 April 2010, 3:41 pm

    Congrats on the big milestone! Wow! I can’t wait to read about your trip. I hope you’re able to post some pics. 🙂
    .-= Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl´s last blog ..A black toe nail loss & I’m leaving for D.C. tomorrow! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much! i can’t believe i’ve pulled it off. can’t wait to hear about your trip too!

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  7. Suzie
    03 April 2010, 4:51 pm

    Congratulations! What a wonderful feeling to see that you are able to make sound decisions and don’t have to rely on counting, cue cards, gimicks, measuring, .. you have it all in you!
    .-= Suzie´s last blog ..the food stuff =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, suzie! i do have it all in me, i just need to remember it’s there and to keep using it. =)

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  8. Jill
    03 April 2010, 5:20 pm

    I’m so happy for you and proud of you! I bet it felt wonderful! A little update on me now…I went to the doctor the other day and when she weighed me I have lost 4 lbs! 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    aw, thanks, jill! it does feel wonderful, i just hope i can keep it up and not have my clothes stop fitting. =)
    congrats on your loss! i hope that all else was well.

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    Jill Reply:

    Thanks! Yes everything else has been going well with me.
    .-= Jill´s last blog ..SirenOfFire: Going out tonight possibly! =-.

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  9. Jody - Fit ta 52
    03 April 2010, 9:26 pm

    WOW! A major step for you! So great that you believed enough in yourself! Can’t wait to hear more!
    .-= Jody – Fit ta 52´s last blog ..Short Wedding Recap/Pictures =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, jody! it feels good. i can’t wait to see what happens myself. =)

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  10. Christie {Honoring Health}
    04 April 2010, 7:00 am

    Yay!! So happy for you!! Can’t wait to hear how your vacay was.

    Good luck with the laundry. I have a ton to do myself!
    .-= Christie {Honoring Health}´s last blog ..Batch Cooking – What to Cook =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, christie!

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  11. Holly
    04 April 2010, 4:39 pm

    Wow – this makes me SO HAPPY to read this!! It’s amazing to see how far you have come. I can only hope I’ll be able to do the same one day, and hopefully I can learn from you. Will you write a book? 🙂

    Can’t wait to hear about your trip!
    .-= Holly´s last blog ..New Things: Truvia and New Nut Butters =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much, holly! i am going to try hard to stay this way. it really is freeing in a way.

    i have every confidence you will get here too, i will be happy to do whatever i can to help. a book? hmmmm….. =)

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  12. Ameena
    04 April 2010, 6:56 pm

    Great job on the intuitive eating…somehow we lose this ability as we get older and I don’t understand why? I watch Maya and she eats until she’s full and doesn’t look back while I eat until it’s gone. So silly!

    Congrats to you though!!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, ameena! that is what all the books say – we all start out as intuitive eaters as children until something funky happens to us that makes us disordered to some extent. the trick is getting back to that time in our lives when we were little and do exactly what maya does.

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  13. amanda
    04 April 2010, 10:09 pm

    Wow! Congrats!!! This is a great giant step!
    .-= amanda´s last blog ..Las Vegas Food Porn =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, amanda!

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  14. Margarita Tartakovsky
    05 April 2010, 2:29 pm

    Congratulations! I also used to feel like I needed rules and regulations about eating. I had issues with disordered eating, and I thought normal, healthy eating meant being on a diet.

    Then, when I discovered the idea of intuitive eating (which we all know how to do as babies, like you mentioned; I think we get lost in part because of our culture), I started feeling so much better. I agree with the comments here – it feels so liberating! Yes, sometimes, I overeat or undereat but it’s a learning process. I’m also way healthier now then I was when I was yo-yo dieting and feeling like a failure.

    I’m so happy for you! It’s a wonderful step in getting healthier and feeling great about yourself! You should be incredibly proud of yourself. 🙂
    .-= Margarita Tartakovsky´s last blog ..Health & Happiness At Every Size: Part 2 of Q&A with Elizabeth Patch =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, margarita! it’s finally sinking in that it’s ok to overeat or undereat a bit. i’m trusting that my body will tell me what is right. it is definitely a learning process as you said.

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  15. Sarah
    05 April 2010, 4:15 pm

    Good for you! What a leap of faith — you did it! Like you said above, one day at a time. That’s all you have to do.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, sarah!

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  16. Margarita Tartakovsky
    06 April 2010, 11:34 am

    Trusting your body is so important, and it can take time. We’ve been conditioned to put our trust elsewhere on outside factors like diet rules.

    The great thing is that you’re making strides, you’re moving forward and that’s really awesome! 🙂
    .-= Margarita Tartakovsky´s last blog ..Health & Happiness At Every Size: Part 2 of Q&A with Elizabeth Patch =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i haven’t trusted my body or my feelings about food in a long time, margarita, so i appreciate you pointing out that this process will take time and not just happen overnight. i am very much a rule follower, rigid with my routine, and i’m slowly breaking free from that.

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  17. […] An article about intuitive eating appeared a while ago at Confessions of a Compulsive Eater (if you aren’t already reading her blog, go check it out! It’s fantastic). It served as inspiration and motivation for me to listen even more to my body. My emotional eating patterns aren’t completely gone, of course, but listening to my body with the help of yoga did help me get a better understanding of it. And for that, I am grateful. […]

  18. Farnoosh
    04 May 2010, 11:11 am

    Gosh I used to count my calories when I was younger…and I have gone through up and downs with my eating forever. I am so glad you found a way to break free. I broke free from obsessing over what I eat by a lifetime of routines,habits, and a lot of yoga and self-love!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    congrats to you!!! i bet you feel amazing!
    thanks for stopping by!

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