Intuitive Eating Weigh-In

love2eatinpa, 20 April 2010, 26 comments
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So at three weeks and one day into Intuitive Eating, I got on the scale for the first time this past Sunday.

I was very curious, wasn’t sure what to expect. I had started taking an estrogen supplement about a week before I stopped all my food weighing/measuring and calorie counting. I had read that a side effect of an estrogen supplement is weight gain. So that was on my mind.

I thought that I was eating roughly what I had been eating when I was counting, but thought that maybe I’d eaten a little more each day.

My clothes were still fitting pretty much the same, which of course was the true measure, but I was very curious to touch base on the scale.

Well, I’m happy to report that I lost a pound, which in effect means I maintained my weight, for which I’m quite happy. It’s only been a few weeks, but at least there wasn’t a tremendous gain. That may have scared me away from intuitive eating and had me running back to the calorie counting, weighing and measuring.

Seeing that number on the scale was evidence that this was working for me. I took the huge leap of faith, having the confidence to trust myself and my body, and it seems to be working so far.

So I remain cautiously optimistic. I will get on the scale in another month, and then a month after that. I think at that point, if my weight stays roughly the same, I will feel like this is truly working. I will then feel confident going forward that I can really do this.

I’m sure I’m jumping the gun here at less than one month into the intuitive eating, but because how one views/label oneself plays such a big roll, I’m wondering at what point in time do I change saying I’m “in recovery” to I’m “recovered”? What do you think is the barometer for that? Is there some clinical amount of time required of having not binged and be eating intuitively? Do I need to be eating intuitively for 2 weeks, 6 months, 5 years?

Is an addict ever recovered? This is SO confusing!

If you feel you’ve recovered, what was the point you got to that enabled you to call yourself recovered?

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  1. Kyle
    20 April 2010, 6:19 pm

    Great victory for your intuitive eating!

    I will always consider myself an addict…I’ve been eating intuitively for about 5 weeks and it has been going well. I know that I still have my weaknesses at any all you can eat formats, e.g. pot lucks, buffets, salad bars, etc.

    If I’m cooking for myself or ordering at a sit down restaurant, I can keep my portion and selections in good check.

    But, I know that there are still triggers out there that I’m not good at controlling…so I don’t know if I’ll ever be “recovered”…and I’m just fine with that really. Like your bracelet, I’d rather always be reminded of it.
    .-= Kyle´s last blog ..Fat Guy in a Little Coat… =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks for your input, kyle. i can’t help but feel that you are somewhat limiting yourself as to what you can accomplish. look how far you’ve already come! why would you not shoot for a full recovery? jmho. =)

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  2. Karen @ Waisting Time
    20 April 2010, 6:50 pm

    Good for you! I have read conflicting information about how long it takes to make/break a habit, but most seem to land on 3-4 weeks. So you are well on your way to long-term success:)

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    oh wow, karen, i hope you are right!!

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  3. Lisa
    20 April 2010, 7:46 pm

    I’m so happy to hear your weigh in went well. That is great.

    I do think that addicts can be recovered. I know it’s a very opinionated subject matter. I found it interesting reading about that in the book Goodbye Ed Hello Me. She considers herself recovered now. I believe you will know when you’re “recovered”.

    I think mentally it would be nice to say “I’m recovered”.

    You know…cancer patients say their recovered….even though there may be a possibility that the cancer could return. Hmmm…. It is a confusing topic.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    yes, that is exactly why i was asking, because i think it would change my mindset even more if i could say i was “recovered”. however, how does one gauge that? it is confusing, so i’m very curious to hear what you guys all say.

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  4. amanda
    20 April 2010, 8:39 pm

    WOW!! That is great news!! As for an addict question about if they can recover? I think they can but at the same time addicts have a tendency to revert to their old ways much quicker and then things may or can get out of control. That is why people who are alcoholics shouldn’t drink if they are a recovered alcoholic. Why take the chance? However, as a complusive eater…it is sooooo much harder because you can’t live without food. Anyway, it seems like you are having great progress and can’t wait to hear more updates. Kudos!
    .-= amanda´s last blog ..The Big Salad! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, amanda! you bring up a good point about the ease of falling back into it and how it is so much harder with a food addiction because you have to eat food to survive. *sigh*

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  5. Diane Fit to the Finish
    20 April 2010, 8:59 pm

    I admire you for infrequent weigh-ins. I confess to being in the school of daily weighing. It works for me.

    I don’t know that I have “recovered” from those impulses that led me to 300 pounds. I know I have learned to handle the emotions that inevitably surrounded poor food choices, but the emotions are still there.
    .-= Diane Fit to the Finish´s last blog ..One Common Maintenance Question =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i used to weigh myself at least once a day for years up until january when i decided to give it up. surprisingly, it was much easier than i thought it would be.

    wow, you have come such a long way!!! so do you consider yourself to be “in recovery” then?

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  6. julie
    21 April 2010, 10:24 am

    I consider myself recoveredish. I haven’t binged in a few years now. I tried recently, failed miserably. I felt stupid for trying to keep eating when I wasn’t hungry, the tasty stuff I was eating had no taste, I felt like I was punishing myself, looking for an emotional reaction that was no longer set up to happen. I stopped eating, walked a while, came home, folded my arms, paced and glared at the cat until it passed. I also took away my cigarettes recently, that sucked as well. I still have some dysfunctional behaviors, but the biggies, eating and smoking, aren’t there anymore, and the others are kinda useless/harmless in comparison.
    .-= julie´s last blog ..Fake skinny =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    lol! recoveredish, i like that! and wow, you tackled not smoking as well. a double whammy! i give you huge props for trying to kick both those habits and succeeding!!! i’m glad you stopped by, julie!

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  7. Jody - Fit at 52
    21 April 2010, 8:40 pm

    I think you are headed in the right direction for sure. A victory for you! I think your mindset is right & when the mindset is right, that leads to positive things!

    Like Diane, I am a weigher.. every day, first thing BUT I am not a recovering anything which makes a difference based on what you write here.

    They say alcoholics & cig smokers are always recovering so I don’t know. I good question for your therapist!
    .-= Jody – Fit at 52´s last blog ..Lists to Achieve Success =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, jody, it does feel like a victory. every day under my belt where i don’t binge and just eat intuitively is a victory.

    i agree with you about the mindset issue, which i guess is the reason i’m so hell-bent right now on figuring out what to “label” myself. i’m thinking that the recovering/y ‘labeling’ though is not black and white. i’m a person who likes black and white, which is why i’m struggling with this.

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  8. Julie - Big Girl Bombshell
    21 April 2010, 11:58 pm

    If you need a label, how about unlapsing or restored. I had a hard time with that label thing too after Alanon for so many years. I just say I am a work in progress and restoring or discovering…..Here are a few more Non compulsive eater…Mindful eater … Intuitively eating….Any of them
    You get to CHOOSE! That’s the beauty…Call it whatever you feel! Honestly there is no right or wrong!
    .-= Julie – Big Girl Bombshell´s last blog ..Dr. Jekyll – Mr. Hyde Diet =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, julie! i need to look at the “get to choose” as a good thing, instead of as a frustrating thing. i’m a very black and white person. =)

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  9. Diana
    22 April 2010, 6:44 am

    You’re never really “recovered.” But, that doesn’t matter. You know you can trust yourself. You know the signs if you end up relapsing a little so that you can catch it immediately/early and not have it become a problem like before. As intuitive eating becomes longer and easier, you will think of yourself as less of a compulsive eater.

    You’ve done an amazing job! Congrats, and great work 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i think you are right, diana, the longer i am eating intuitively and successful, the less i will think of myself as a compuslive overeater. thanks!

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  10. Christie {Honoring Health}
    22 April 2010, 8:04 am

    This is a tough one for me. I’m not sure that recovered is ever the right term. At this point, while I feel the happiest and healthiest I ever have, I still have to face down those disordered thoughts almost every day and I don’t believe the thoughts go away it is just a matter of how we react to them that changes.

    I would also like to say that for me, the number on the scale was never an indicator that intuitive eating was working since what I was working on wasn’t about the weight or the food. You are in a much different place than I was when I started but I gained 40lbs in the process of giving up dieting and learning to eat intuitively. That is scary to hear but it is just the truth but I honestly don’t regret gaining a pound of it. I had a lot of work to do that I could not do while dieting and a lot of work to do that needed coping skills I didn’t have. I have to remind myself that without that food, where would I be? That food saved my sanity and probably my life.

    I am losing the weight again now, without even trying which to me is just proof that it wasn’t about the food. Once I got my mental house in order, the food and the weight just fell into place.
    .-= Christie {Honoring Health}´s last blog ..The Blue Jar =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks for sharing all your insights, christie. i understand that many people gain weight when they start to eat intuitively. but you are right, we started in different places. i worked through the mental stuff before starting. however you get there doesn’t matter, as long as you get there!
    isn’t it wonderful to lose weight w/out trying, just my listening to your body!?!

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  11. Holly
    23 April 2010, 12:44 pm

    That is SO exciting! You have to feel so validated to know that you have let go of so many compulsive tendencies, yet you are still able to maintain your weight with ease! It gives me hope that the fear of gaining with intuitive eating (and not counting) is all for nothing. Congratulations!

    I think food addiction/issues are something I’ll always have to battle – kind of like an alcoholic. BUT, I would like to think it does get easier. And for me, the longer I go without something, the more motivation it is to keep going, for sure!
    .-= Holly´s last blog ..When Did You Become Aware? =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    well, so far so good! like i said, i think i need a few more months under my belt, which include going to parties/events etc, eat intuitively and still maintain my weight. i think i will really know how i’m faring at that point. i hope to keep my head in the same place it is now so that these other things will be no big deal.

    as i said to, i think it was kyle, i don’t want you to sell yourself short and think you will always have to battle this. don’t frame it that way! you can totally beat this, holly!!

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  12. Sarah
    23 April 2010, 3:49 pm

    Wow, good for you! It seems like your leap of faith in trying intuitive eating has really turned out well — I’m so happy for you. As far as “recovered” vs. “recovering” — I think that’s up to the individual. I know for me I will always be a recovering alcoholic — I don’t think of myself as recovered because I always have to be vigilant, and I had a relapse 8 months ago, but I might feel differently if (when) I had more sober time.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    well, so far so good.

    you are right, i’m slowly learning that whatever term you use is an individual thing, not cut and dried as i had hoped. i bet, as you said, when you have more sober time under your belt, you might feel differently.

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  13. Lisa
    27 April 2010, 5:51 pm

    I consider myself a food addict. I have mixed feelings about whether or not I am “cured”, mainly because it’s something I struggle with every single day. I am much better and am making better choices, but I still have my “issues”.
    .-= Lisa´s last blog ..What An Ugly Run =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i hear ya, lisa. it’s great that you are doing so well and making good choices!
    i don’t struggle every day anymore, but the whole “cured” thing, i’m finding, is such a gray area.

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