I Walked into the Lion’s Den

love2eatinpa, 24 December 2009, 3 comments
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Every year at my kids’ elementary school, at december holiday time, each student always makes the obligatory gingerbread house in class, with the help of parents.

Because I try to be involved with kids’ school activities, when it was my 2nd grader’s day (my daughter is in the middle school now) to make the gingerbread houses, I opted to join in for the festivities. I didn’t realize (translation – I wasn’t thinking!) when I agreed to help out that I was walking into the lion’s den.

Instructions came home to the parents a week or two prior that every child needed to contribute a can of frosting and one package of treats to be used for decorations. So already you know that there will be at least 20 types of candies, all for the taking, to be used to decorate the gingerbread house.

Now the truth behind the gingerbread house is that it is really an empty milk carton or empty small box of goldfish (ssshhhh, don’t tell!). The kids smother the box with frosting and apply pieces of graham cracker to make it look like gingerbread. It is very cute and of course the kids love it. So after the graham crackers are up, another coating of icing can be smeared on so the kids can then apply all of the little candies, gummies, marshmellows, skittles, gumdrops, etc to it. Of course this is all done on a styrofoam plate, so the plate can get coated with icing as well and then decorations can be put up as the ‘yard’ around the house.

Well, in the past, prior to my abstinence, I loved to go to this annual event for both kids because it meant tons of junk food at my fingertips that I would not normally get to eat. As I would help my child decorate his/her gingerbread house, decorations would mysteriously land in my mouth, handful after handful, instead of onto the gingerbread house. Luckily, a lot of the kids were doing the same thing, so I would fit right in with the under 9 crowd. 🙂

This year I went in prepared – I put a piece of gum in my mouth and told myself that for the hour or so I was there for the project, that I would not go to town on the decorations. I am proud to say that none of the candy really even called to me this year, as I’m more of a chocolate fan than a gummy, candy corn-type fan, which is what was mostly there. The only thing that tugged on my complulsion strings was watching the kids eat spoonfulls of chocolate icing right out of the container. My gosh, how often had I done that in my binging years?

Anyway, a small victory! I was quite pleased with how easy it was since I really didn’t make it an option for myself from the get-go. It certainly helped that the candies there weren’t my favs either, but that is only secondary. 🙂

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  1. Jess
    26 December 2009, 1:46 pm

    Hooray!

    That’s awesome that you made it through the graham cracker house decorating this year!

    Do you ever go places or do things where you’re almost split mentally, remembering your frame-of-mind last time (and possibly times before that) so vividly you can almost feel that part of you hanging back in the wings, as if waiting to get its chance to come out? I know it sounds weird (I hope not too weird, though), but when I have been confronted with a familiar situation recently, I am literally of two minds. I have the old messages there, playing, but they aren’t driving me any more–like hearing a radio through a closed car window. It’s not front and center and something I concentrate on; it’s something that I remember but the old, familiar feelings or wants or desires aren’t there.

    Kind of like being yourself yet also seeing yourself when you dream.

    Meh. I wish I could explain that separation between pre-abstinence and post-abstinence thinking while still in transition–but it’s not going to be today, I guess.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    i totally understand what you are saying. those ‘voices’ are always there. we are just in a better frame of mind right now not to give them center stage.

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  2. Maria
    30 December 2009, 11:09 am

    I think a lot of compulsive over eaters are chocolate fans. Spoonfuls of icing… I did that a couple of weeks ago when making chocolate cupcakes. Somehow several of the cupcakes ended up without icing, since the icing had already vanished. Into my belly.

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