I Took Another Intuitive Eating Step

Our family went out to dinner on last night. When I go out to dinner with my husband, friends or family, I always order a salad, which I wrote about my reasoning behind why I do that here.

Well, since I ate a salad for lunch yesterday, I decided to take, what probably seems ridiculous to most of you, but a big step for me, I ordered “regular” food.

I started with a side salad, then got a meal of broiled scallops, baked potato and veggies du jour (which actually included corn, one of the few veggies I like!).

So for the first time since I started on my quest to be binge-free over 2 years ago, I ordered non-rabbit food for dinner. Even my daughter said incredulously – “you didn’t get a salad!?!?” Ugh, how sad is that!?!?!

So I only ate roughly half of my meal, plus I ate some of the cheese off of my daughter’s personal pizza and took one french fry from my son’s plate.

I was quite pleased with myself as I have had a fear all this time that if I ordered ‘normal’ food I would not be able to have the whole plateful of food in front of me and be able to stop eating when I’ve had enough. When I order salad, I know that I can eat every morsel. So yay! A small victory for me!

I even finished off my son’s ice cream sundae with no regrets, as dessert. And the other day I took my kids for water ice and actually joined them in getting something. Normally I would have looked over the water ice place’s nutritional info ahead of time and would know in advance which item (with the lowest calories of course!) I was going to choose, if I was going to get anything at all. But I didn’t this time. I ate a small water ice treat like a normal person. I didn’t look up the calories when I got home either. I didn’t care. I ate when I was hungry and just trusted myself and my body.

I know this stuff all sounds silly, but it is so huge for me. I’m feeling “normal”!

Though I admit to doing a little bit of tallying in my head at dinner to make sure I didn’t go crazy, I did not hit my computer the minute we walked in the door to see how many calories I consumed (nor did I tally them later). My gosh, it is so liberating to be able to do that!

And oh, I just looked at the calendar and realized that today is the 4-week of anniversary of no calorie counting and weighing/measuring food!! Woohoo! If you would have told me six months ago I would be doing this, I would have laughed in your face.

Anyway, just wanted to share this little victory, because I was pretty happy about it. Each day that goes by, I get a little more confident and it’s such a great feeling. I pray that it continues. I’m still a work in progress, but one that is making progress.

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  1. Christie {Honoring Health}
    24 April 2010, 12:07 pm

    That is awesome, such an amazing step for you!
    .-= Christie {Honoring Health}´s last blog ..Playing in the Dirt =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, christie! i’m slowly moving along…

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  2. Jody - Fit at 52
    24 April 2010, 12:48 pm

    First of all, I can’t believe your son did not finish his ice cream sundae! What kid does that! 🙂

    Secondly, on your daughter’s comment, I once had my granddaughter say: Nana, why do you always wear the same clothes”. They really do watch, see & hear!!!

    So, big congrats to you on another step in your journey! YES, you should celebrate these with us, your readers!
    .-= Jody – Fit at 52´s last blog ..Reunion Pic! Stimulus Package – Saturday Funny! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    lol! my 8-yr son is a ‘normal’ eater like my husband, he stops eating when he’s had enough or has something else he wants to do.

    these kids really are observant sponges, aren’t they?!?!?

    thanks for your support!

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  3. Kyle
    24 April 2010, 1:59 pm

    Huge victory! Ultimately, we all crave normalcy or whatever we view as normal anyway. I too want to feel natural about my lifestyle and not have it feel so contrived or forced…we are all getting there, though. Yay!
    .-= Kyle´s last blog ..Take a Hike Giveaway Winner! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, kyle and i totally hear ya, we are all slowly getting there!

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  4. Karen @ Waisting Time
    24 April 2010, 2:43 pm

    Awesome job! I don’t find anything silly in this… and the whole concept of feeling normal about eating. I have eaten out several meals in a row now and look forward to the day when I can just do it without so much darn thought about what I am eating and choosing! I don’t mind making good choices, but I sure wish it wasn’t so much in my head when eating out. Progress for both of us:)
    .-= Karen @ Waisting Time´s last blog ..I’m Leaaavving on a Jet Plane =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, karen. i think that we will always pretty much need to make good food choices, but you are right, the big hurdle is getting over all the conversations we have in our own heads about it. yay for us making progress!

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  5. Rita
    24 April 2010, 4:08 pm

    That’s so fantastic, and must feel just brilliant! I’m the proud parent of a child like that too, she stops eating whenever she’s full, dessert, salad, toast, doesn’t matter. I enjoy watching this, it’s a nice reminder that this skill is built in.
    .-= Rita´s last blog ..Fast and Loose Calorie Counting =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, rita, it does feel really good. i don’t know that i enjoy watching my son be able to do this, i think i’m just in awe of him and perhaps jealous, as crazy as that sounds. you make a great point though, it’s a nice reminder that that skill is built in!! i like that!

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  6. Missa
    24 April 2010, 4:59 pm

    I am going to go out to dinner tonight and think of you!! Awesome.

    Just awesome.

    Cheers,
    Missa
    LosingEthel

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    aw, thanks! enjoy your dinner!

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  7. Diana
    24 April 2010, 6:04 pm

    Congrats! That is a huge accomplishment (actually several…4 months, dinner, treats, etc.). You *should* be happy and proud.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, diana!!

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  8. Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl
    24 April 2010, 7:39 pm

    You know it sounds like you have this whole thing under control and I’m so proud of you!!!! 🙂
    .-= Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl´s last blog ..P90X before pictures & is 3,000 cals p/day too much? =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    well, i don’t know if i have it totally under control, but, knock on wood, so far, so good. i’m still a work in progress, but thanks, bobbie!!

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  9. Julie - Big Girl Bombshell
    25 April 2010, 9:42 am

    Awesome job! This is what stuck out for me in your post. it is so liberating to be able to do that!
    That is what I think I am searching for…..the freedom, the liberation from how I have allowed food to control my life!
    .-= Julie – Big Girl Bombshell´s last blog ..Making our World a Better Place =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, julie! it is liberating. i didn’t know it, but i have shackled myself all these years to these compulsive behaviors like weighing myself, weighing/measuring what i ate, counting every morsel of calories that went in my mouth. it feels great to have gained enough confidence and trust in myself to have let go of this white-knuckle-grip i’ve had on controlling these things. i just hope over the next few months that my weight maintains, then i will really know that this bold, new change is working for me.

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  10. Nicole
    25 April 2010, 12:47 pm

    Hi there! I just came across your blog and wanted to comment. As someone who has binged for years (I’ve only recently been successful in fighing it!), I’m really happy to have found a blog that relates! Congratulations on your victory! I SO understand what a big deal that is. Good for your for challenging yourself to go outside your comfort zone– and succeeding. 🙂

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks! congrats on your success as well! i’m definitely going to come check out your blog.

    so glad you stopped by, nicole!

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  11. Diane Fit to the Finish
    25 April 2010, 9:49 pm

    I think that this is such an important thing for everyone who has ever struggled with food control to learn. You triumphed over that situation! Congratulations.
    .-= Diane Fit to the Finish´s last blog ..Trying This Again =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks! one, down, a gazillion to go! =)

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  12. amanda
    25 April 2010, 10:06 pm

    First off, I wanna say great job on eating “like a normal person”. LoL Whatever that means. 🙂 No seriously tho, great job I can only really hope to get there some day. I can start out eating like a normal person and then this alarm bell goes off and it says…okay lets eat everything in sight for the rest of the day. Screw your hunger signals…just EAT!!! This very thing happen today while I ate out. Ohhhh the demons we have. I wanna ask tho, since before you always use to eat salad while dining out… would also eat off others plates (like your kids and hubby?) and also order dessert? Or was salad just the safe area till you got home to binge? Just curious
    .-= amanda´s last blog ..The Big Salad! =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    totally been there, amanda with starting off the day normal, then the alarm bell, or i’ve often referred to as the feeding frenzy, takes over and then nothing was safe from being shoveled into my mouth.

    well, the salad ordering has been while i’ve been binge-free for the past 2+ years, not prior. the four of us would split a dessert and the salad enabled me to have enough calories leftover to have some dessert. when we split one between the four of us, i couldn’t get into too much trouble. =)

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  13. Holly
    26 April 2010, 10:56 am

    Wow, how freeing that must have felt! I know I went through a phase (maybe 6 or 7 years) where the ONLY thing I would eat at a restaurant was a grilled chicken sandwich. I freaked out if there wasn’t one on the menu somewhere. I’m trying to make more diverse choices, and it makes going out to eat a MUCH more fun experience. Congratulations to you for making that step – AND for not feeling guilty for it, because you shouldn’t at all! You listened to your body and gave it what it wanted. 🙂
    .-= Holly´s last blog ..Food, Inc. – What Do You Think? =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    it was a great feeling, thanks! i’m a creature of habit too, so besides the salad, i can definitely related to the grilled chicken sandwich phase you went through. but to do something that is “normal” instead of disordered, feels wonderful.

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  14. Lara (Thinspired)
    26 April 2010, 2:34 pm

    I can definitely relate to this! I have always ordered salads out as well, but lately I am branching out and really trying to listen to my body. This past weekend I ordered a lot of rich food I would never normally consider, but I savored each bite and didn’t end up eating all of it like I normally would with a salad!
    Yay us! 🙂
    .-= Lara (Thinspired)´s last blog ..Down by the Bay… =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    awesome job! it feels great, doesn’t it?

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  15. karen@fitnessjourney
    26 April 2010, 2:49 pm

    Ever since I did a post on why French woman don’t get fat I have been taking a similar approach to eating. What I mentioned in that post was that women of associate guilt with eating. It looks like you’ve come a long way. Good for you, that’s huge!
    .-= karen@fitnessjourney´s last blog ..Four-legged Fitness Buddies =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    that was a great post and so interesting how our cultures differ in regard to food. we do need to take some lessons from the french in that regard.

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  16. Jenn Givler
    26 April 2010, 3:30 pm

    Congratulations – big huge applause and a big old hug. That is fantastic!
    .-= Jenn Givler´s last blog ..WoW – Interval Training =-.

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much! and thanks for dropping by, jenn!

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  17. Carly
    02 May 2010, 4:36 pm

    That’s a huge step!!!
    So proud of you – we can do this!!!

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