Comments on: I Need to Get Serious (A Little Rant)

By: love2eatinpa

love2eatinpa — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 22:50:49 +0000

ahh, the siren song of trigger foods! i have a visual of you walking through the aisle with your hand up so you truly wouldn’t be able to see the stuff above the fish and veggies. =) and btw, that is a really dirty trick for the market to set the store up like that! good for you for getting out there with only the foods you needed!

By: Jess

Jess — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 22:31:48 +0000

Good on you for hitting one of those growth moments. I bet your therapist helped a lot (I’m looking at this before I go to the next two entries, about the appointment) with directing the focus in a way that makes you free to enjoy your abstinence.

And yes, I have the same problems sometimes. I went shopping for groceries after I left one of my OA meetings this week, and the siren song of the cookies and crackers and candy (which they put above the frozen foods I buy like fish and fruit vegetables) made me shield my eyes. As in, I literally was walking down the aisle with a hand at one side of my face or the other (like horse blinders) when I passed my trigger foods.

And, HP knows, the whole aisle was a minefield of trigger foods. But I got out with my fruit and fish and vegetables, and I am thankful for it.

By: love2eatinpa

love2eatinpa — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:42:05 +0000

wow, bobbie, i don’t look at myself that way, but thanks! i had no idea that so many people struggled with buffets like i do. though i wish so many of us didn’t suffer, the blogosphere is an amazing place to find a degree of normalcy, which is comforting.
i will definitely share what the therapist and i talked about it once i process it all.

By: Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl

Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 22:52:29 +0000

I look up to you so much. You’ve DONE IT and you’re DOING IT.

Sometimes I think I’ll never be able to be around buffets without either (1) thinking about EVERYTHING I wish I were stuffing in my mouth or (2) stuffing everything I can in my mouth.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get over that. Please share with us what your therapist recommends to you (if it’s not too personal) because I could really use some pointers.
.-= Bobbie @Anonymous Fat Girl´s last blog ..Excuses & MAKING IT COUNT in the gym =-.

By: love2eatinpa

love2eatinpa — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 22:06:35 +0000

thanks for your faith in me, lara, but my fear is that i will all too easily slip back into my old ways of bingeing. you are SO right, that i’m totally focusing on the “what ifs”. you definitely have me pegged!
i appreciate your playing devil’s advocate and you are right, no-one would stop loving me and i wouldn’t lose my job and those things are huge. however, depending on how much i put on, i would cause an expense to have to buy new clothing, plus i would feel unhappy with myself. this is so hard!!!

By: Lara

Lara — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 20:59:06 +0000

the chances of that happening are so unlikely. You need to remind yourself of that. Those of us with compulsive issues tend to focus so much on the “what if’s”. You have been binge free for 2 yrs. That is HUGE accomplishment. You have obviously learned a lot.

To play devil’s advocate a bit–worst case scenario so what if you were to gain a few lbs? Would your loved ones stop loving you? Would you lose your job? Chances are the answer would be a big resounding NO. You would not keep gaining and gaining and not able to stop because now you have so many more tools plus your support system from your couneslor. Just some things to think about…

By: love2eatinpa

love2eatinpa — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 20:42:06 +0000

thanks for your support, holly. i really do want to work on it.
sadly, you are right, we will never be “normal” eaters, but we can try to get as close as possible i think. however hard or easy it is, is all inside of us. we are the ones that give the food the power, just like alcoholics and drug addicts give their drugs of the choice the power.
it’s a shame that that certain group of friends would pick on you.

By: Holly

Holly — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 19:30:28 +0000

I can’t wait to hear what your therapist says. I think it’s big that you want to work on this, rather than accepting it. Sometimes I wonder if it’d just be easier to accept I will never be “normal” with food? This saddens me, of course, but I just hate that there never seems to be a solution. Or if there is, I need to hear it!

I think like any addiction, to some extent, it will always be a struggle. However, I TELL myself that over time it will get easier. For example, I used to have trouble when I met up with a certain group of girl friends. Most of them don’t work out, and they’d pick on me if I didn’t try the junk food they’d all bring. And recently almost every time we’ve gotten together, I’ve not binged or been tempted to binge. It’s HARD, but sometimes not as much. I hope it gets easier the more I’m able to do this!

As much as I try to eat intuitively, it’s hard 100% of the time. And I definitely don’t trust myself to eat what I want when I want it – my teeth would rot from all the sugar!
.-= Holly´s last blog ..Rock Climbing =-.

By: love2eatinpa

love2eatinpa — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 16:41:41 +0000

thanks for reminding me that i’m not alone. megan. knowing that brings some level of comfort and/or normalcy to my feelings.
i hope the changes with your diet help you find your answers. good luck!

By: Megan @ Healthy Hoggin'

Megan @ Healthy Hoggin' — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 15:59:06 +0000

Oh, I can relate to the feelings facing the buffet! (Esp. a dessert buffet!) I’m not sure how to get over that, since I still struggle with it myself, but you’re definitely not alone! I’m hoping the anxiety around food will go away over time, but I’m also experimenting with changes in my diet to see if that helps. I’m convinced that processed foods give me anxiety– withdrawals and cravings– so I’m cutting them out (in a very non-restrictive feeling way) this month to see if that changes anything for me.

Good luck!!
.-= Megan @ Healthy Hoggin’´s last blog ..Mommy & Me Weekend =-.