Compulsive Overeater to Triathlete

I have been blogging for about 10 months now and for some reason it hasn’t occurred to me until recently that I have never posted any “before” and “after” photos of myself.

So here they are…

This first pix is probably me at close to my heaviest. Notice the big sweater which I thought hid everything…

And here is me when I lost about 10 lbs since the first photo…

(my gawd, I had no idea those popular cable sweaters were so see-through! how embarrassing!)

The sad faces are there because I was unhappy with myself. I was bingeing like crazy, and did not love myself or nurture myself. I turned to food with complete abandon when I was happy, sad, bored, fill in the emotion. For me, eating enormous amounts of food was the answer to everything. I felt badly about myself, but felt helpless to do anything about it.

With many diets, yo-yo’s up and down on the scale, then two pregnancies …I’m more than 60 pounds less than the first photo and have been holding at that weight for just under two years.

Here I am on the beach the afternoon of my triathlon. My husband and I were goofing around with the body marking that the triathlon people put on everyone’s arms for identification.

Jody encouraged me to post this pic on my blog, though I told her it made me feel a little uncomfortable. She said “If I were you, I would post that pic! This is just showing people how far you have come & it is possible to overcome & then look great with muscles too… strong & fit!”

Thanks for encouraging me, Jody! I still feel a little funny, but the message is – If I can do this, anyone can. It took me until almost age 40 to realize that my obsession with food/eating was in fact an eating disorder. Through therapy, OA, reading some great books and of course the awesome blog world, I am now pretty much recovered.

The next triathlon is in less than month =)

One Day at a Time... Nurture myself... Awareness... Letting Go... Listen to my Body

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  1. Lisa
    24 August 2010, 4:52 pm

    Dang girl! Your muscles are impressive!!! 🙂
    Lisa´s last blog post ..A Different Kind of Sunday Steak Night

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    lol! thanks! i’m sure you look like that from swimming too!

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  2. Karen
    24 August 2010, 5:02 pm

    You look fabulous and buff! While your loss and maintenance is inspiring, what always most strikes me is how you overcame the food issues. For me that is much harder than losing weight.
    Karen´s last blog post ..The Return of the Cookie Monster

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, karen! i think all those things i mentioned fell into place at the right time, at a time that i was open to it, and was thank goodness it ‘clicked’. i was binge-free for over two years before it clicked so it was certainly a journey.

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  3. Jody - Fit at 52
    24 August 2010, 5:27 pm

    Honestly, I am sounding like a broken record…. YOU ARE FRIGGIN AMAZING!!!

    What an accomplishment to overcome what you did – lose the weight, battle the disorder & come out on the other side not only looking fantastic, fit & with those awesome muscles BUT also a story to tell other people get thru this & know that it can be done. Never give up!

    You have so much to be proud of & you should show that off! 🙂

    I do understand though. It took me years to feel comfortable at showing pics of myself & being able to say that I look damn decent… & now I can say “for my age”.

    You don’t look anywhere near your age! You rock!!!

    Thx so much for sharing your before, after & story!!!!!
    Jody – Fit at 52´s last blog post ..Happy Birthday Dad!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thank you so much, jody! i don’t quite look at it that way though, i’ve just been plugging along doing what i thought was right for me. i don’t feel like anything special. i’m still just a happily married mom who tries her best to take care of her family and now herself too.

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  4. Janell
    24 August 2010, 6:29 pm

    Wowee. That’s amazing! You look fabulous.
    Janell´s last blog post ..Brooding Over Barks

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thank you, janell. it’s been a long road, but definitely worth it.

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  5. amanda
    24 August 2010, 6:35 pm

    Thank you for posting these pics. It is amazing on how far you have came. I am super impressed by your after picture because you look amazing!!
    amanda´s last blog post ..Clothing Swaps

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, amanda. i feel kinda exposed, if that makes sense. and i would bet with all the miles you log, your body is pretty amazing.

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  6. Vanessa
    24 August 2010, 7:42 pm

    Wow! What an inspiration you are to others! You shouldn’t be embarrassed at all about the picture. You worked so hard to get there. You rock!!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much!
    and thanks for stopping by, vanessa!

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  7. Julie - Big Girl Bombshell
    24 August 2010, 8:35 pm

    I’m glad Jody encouraged you to post your pictures. I love your posts to help with the emotional things but it does give hope that there is something on the other side.
    Julie – Big Girl Bombshell´s last blog post ..Cauliflower Mashed “Potatoes”

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks, jules, i appreciate that!

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  8. Cammy@TippyToeDiet
    24 August 2010, 8:54 pm

    You do look awesome! But we know that’s not what it’s ALL about. Your poise, determination, and commitment to yourself are equally awesome!
    Cammy@TippyToeDiet´s last blog post ..Book Review- I’m With Fatty by Edward Ugel Giveaway- too!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    you are 100% right, that is definitely not what it’s about. it’s also about how i feel, setting goals and achieving them, and doing things to take care of myself in mind, spirit and body.

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  9. Food Addict
    25 August 2010, 1:07 pm

    Wow, that is really awesome! you look great… and it’s obvious that you feel great too!! Good for you for posting that picture! You should be proud, and it is an inspiration to the rest of us!

    I still need to make time to read your triathlon experience – i am so excited to hear about it!!! I’ve already looked at the pictures, and it looks like everything went awesome!
    Food Addict´s last blog post ..A Milestone

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much, though i do feel kinda silly. i’m glad the photo is somehow inspirational for you.
    the triathlon was fun and i’ve signed up to do another. i just heard about another one that i might sign up for as well… =)

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  10. MB
    25 August 2010, 3:28 pm

    WOW! Check out those guns! I can’t wait to have some muscles like yours. Congrats on all your hard work. Glad you have a happy face now.
    MB´s last blog post ..Sweet Corn and Maple Peanut Butter

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    lol! thanks, mb! it feels good to have a happy face now. =)

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  11. Kyle
    29 August 2010, 2:45 pm

    Yep…that is truly inspirational…as a fellow 40 something…I don’t have a rock hard bod, but I can see that it is possible with hard work. You deserve all the good things that you’ve worked for.
    Kyle´s last blog post ..Mt PealeMt Schmeal!

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    love2eatinpa Reply:

    thanks so much for the kind words, kyle!

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